Going beyond my edge

Recently I’ve been going beyond my edge.

My edge being the place in which my discomfort and comfort feels fairly balanced. Where I can swing gently between them without too much ruckus.

Beyond my edge is the bit which permeates into everything. It’s like all the resistance comes up everywhere - in my head, in my emotions, in my body. It gets caught in my breath and it consumes my mind.

It’s always when I choose at another level. It’s when I say yes to something I’ve been shown is the right path for me and I go after it - despite the fact it makes no sense.

The familiar voice comes in - surely you’ve overdone it this time, what if you are sabotaging, what if you are wrong?

Inevitably next is the bit where I want to give it all up, where I feel so strongly I can’t sit with the discomfort of the mind - that I go to turn back.

But then this.

I remember I’ve been here before.

I know that I’ve got it in me to stay the course.

I dissect that story of being back to square one with the old fears and see that as nonsense. This isn’t about a linear straight up heal and move. This is about a visiting of deep old wounds because I’ve gone even deeper into myself.

So this is for you today. For those of you who want to make changes but are finding it too much.

⭐ You have got it in you to stay the course.
⭐ You can keep going despite the noise of the ego.
⭐ You are not going backwards with the fear.
⭐ It’s just a new level.
⭐ It’s just a new way of being.
⭐ It’s just shifting out lower frequencies that don’t align to this next stage.
⭐ It’s just a voice that doesn’t understand the wisdom of the soul.

So what do I do when this happens.

I remind myself “This too shall pass” and I remind myself what my mentor Kat has always said to me “You were always someone who couldn’t say no to soul.”

And I believe with all my heart this will be the answer I give when people ask me how I did it.